We talk about calling and purpose. It seems like my entire life has been about understanding my calling and finding my purpose. That means a laundry list of different things for every individual*. It’s a unique concept, its form and nature change. In a society where we are taught a narrow perspective on purpose we often lose ourselves to the facade.
Since I was young, before I fully formed my memory, the earth spoke to me. Spiritual presences made themselves known to me. Of course I didn’t understand this at the time. Of course I was frightened and willed them away. I closed myself off, having boundaries is always ok. standing firm where you feel able to is a gift. Later in life I began to search for this connection again, hungrily, wanting, perpetually.
What I hadn’t realized at the time was that all these people who had good intentions for me, were using tools that didn’t serve me. That didn’t build me. They were directing me towards a life not aligned with my deepest truest nature. I don’t blame them or hold prejudice against them. They were only working with what they were given, and they were doing the best they could everyday. I honor and thank them for their strength and struggle.
But I don’t have to be controlled by falsehoods anymore.
I am learning and stepping into my ability, I am trusting and living authentically each day. I am letting go of restrictions.
All of this is to say. I’m not 100% sure what steps I’ll take, but I’ve talked about wanting to start a church, a community center, and ultimately building a community. A real honest to Goddxx community. Where people can live sustainably, find their purpose and joy and live fully in it.
In order to do that for others I must do it for myself.
I believe in having different levels of access for all so I will offer what I can for free. I trust that love given in earnest will be received and reciprocated. I make no delusions about the hate that’s out in the world, it’s affected me more than once but I cain’t (emphasis on the cain’t) worry about that. I have work to be done.